lustro do dia: o melhor amigo

"Procurar os gestos calmos, sem ciladas nem excessivos rodeios, voltar aos gestos que nos simplificam e tornam seres naturais, esses que não se bifurcam, mas encavalitam expressivamente, por um gosto mais do que residual. Pousar as ideias junto à voz, palavras como pedras quando se fazem vento, correntes arrastando aromas, sensações mais do que ansiedades: mais do que a vontade, a firmeza limpa de reconhecer em tudo um fim em si mesmo. Toda a previsão se arruma num desgosto. Ter verdadeira visão, no sentido visionário, é menos um talento que apalpa o futuro do que ficar contente por esquecer o tempo, alargar um gesto no espaço, rolar o dado desinteressadamente e dar os passos em volta de si como de nada, furtivamente, como animais de um género indiscernível. É uma ficção que amesquinha, o tempo: fazer dele a medida à cabeça de tudo, envergonha os ombros que nos suportam. O tempo cobra-se juros, vive de uma matemática avarenta, um ritmo em desprezo pela melodia; persuasão sem graça nem eloquência. O espaço e a razão das suas distâncias conserva sempre mais nobreza. As paisagens permanecem, desdobram-se, fluem lentamente, quase imóveis, entretendo-se delicadamente com o movimento que lhes damos nós. Percorrem-nos tolerantemente, não dizem muito, mas prosseguem, disponíveis sempre. A sua atenção generosa, a magnífica reciprocidade de se deixarem olhar por quem olha e não perde tempo com o que não está lá. O inferno é uma colecção de ausências, de lugares condenados ao peso do que não se deixa ver, tocar ou sentir. O inferno é elencar as coisas que faltam, dizer que falta alguém, que faltas tu: falta que te completem ou destruam... Há uma razão para que se ajoelhem quando rezam. Esse gesto prostrado através do qual um corpo presta culto ao espaço que tem em volta. E é tocante o modo sincero como Deus se cala e não tem nunca nada mais a acrescentar."

Diogo Vaz Pinto

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the man with the beautiful eyes

the man with the beautiful eyes
 charles bukowski


when we were kids
there was a strange house
all the shades were
always
drawn
and we never heard voices
in there
and the yard was full of
bamboo
and we liked to play in
the bamboo
pretend we were
Tarzan
(although there was no
Jane).
and there was a
fish pond
a large one
full of the
fattest goldfish
you ever saw
and they were
tame.
they came to the
surface of the water
and took pieces of
bread
from our hands.
Our parents had
told us:
“never go near that
house.”
so, of course,
we went.
we wondered if anybody
liveed there.
weeks went by and we
never saw
anybody.
then one day
we heard
a voice
from the house
“YOU GOD DAMNED
WHORE!”
it was a man’s
voice.
then the screen
door
of the house was
flung open
and the man
walked
out.
he was holding a
fifth of whiskey
in his right
hand.
he was about
30.
he had a cigar
in his
mouth,
needed a shave.
his hair was
wild and
and uncombed
and he was
barefoot
in undershirt
and pants.
but his eyes
were
bright.
they blazed
with
brightness
and he said,
“hey, little
gentlemen,
having a good
time, I
hope?”
then he gave a
little laugh
and walked
back into the
house.
we left,
went back to my
parents’ yard
and thought
about it.
our parents,
we decided,
had wanted us
to stay away
from there
because they
never wanted us
to see a man
like
that,
a strong natural
man
with
beautiful
eyes.
our parents
were ashamed
that they were
not
like that
man,
that’s why they
wanted us
to stay
away.
but
we went back
to that house
and the bamboo
and the tame
goldfish.
we went back
many times
for many weeks
but we never
saw
or heard
the man
again.
the shades were
down
as always
and it was
quiet.
then one day
as we came back from
school
we saw the
house.
it had burned
down,
there was nothing
left,
just a smouldering
twisted black
foundation
and we went to
the fish pond
and there was
no water
in it
and the fat
orange goldfish
were dead
there,
drying out.
we went back to
my parents’ yard
and talked about
it
and decided that
our parents had
burned their
house down,
had killed
them
had killed the
goldfish
because it was
all too
beautiful,
even the bamboo
forest had
burned.
they had been
afraid of
the man with the
beautiful
eyes.
and
we were afraid
then
that
all throughout our lives
things like that
would
happen,
that nobody
wanted
anybody
to be
strong and
beautiful
like that,
that
others would never
allow it,
and that
many people
would have to
die.